i am going to the philippines soon.. and i am gonna miss you a lot..

yeah okay.. you too.. and you.. and you.. not you.. but you.. :)
posted by spes 5:25 pm  0 comments

  Embrace your like: ON days like this I do not feel afraid of death, or pain. I don't know if it's the tiredness, ... but today, as I (...) there's a feeling inside me like the potential nuclear fission of every atom in my body: a chain reaction of energy that could take me to the limits of everything. As I (...), I almost desire some kind of violence: to live, to die, just for the experience of it. I'm so hyped up suddenly that I want to fuck the world, or be fucked by it. Yes, I want to be penetrated by the shrapnel of a million explosions. I want to see my own blood. I want to die with everyone: the ultimate bonding experience; the flash at the end of the world. Me becoming you; you becoming we; we becoming forever. A collapsing wave of violence. On days like this I think about being cursed and all I can think is now, now, now.

posted by fuzzkill 11:44 am  0 comments

  As it turns out, I would flick my beans for Agyness Deyn:
Agyness Deyn (born Laura Hollins) on 16 February 1983 is an English model. Agyness Deyn is from Failsworth in Greater Manchester. Deyn's working life started serving cod, chips and mushy peas part-time at 17, which she did in Ramsbottom. She left home for London, working in a burger joint during the day and a bar at night but she admits: “I tried to make cocktails but it didn’t quite work.” She was signed up by Models 1 when she visited the agency, slammed down a portfolio and refused to leave until she was signed. (Courtesy of Wikipedia)


posted by fuzzkill 4:36 am  1 comments

  18th place: this is kinda freaking me out.. but I just might have a plan now..
posted by spes 1:37 am  1 comments

  P with an N not an I S: i want mira and fuzzy and lilith and munloo and ilyani and nabil and asrul and hussain and hussain's girlfriend and hussain's girlfriend's sister and babe and lee and faizal and jas and kai and norma and zamil and go to an island and get wasted and remember that we actaully did something this year.. hohoho
posted by spes 4:05 am  5 comments

  pon:
posted by spes 1:26 am  1 comments

  there's nothing to say: the universe isn't always plesent at times but some how you just gotta believe that things do happen for a reason.. and some reasons are never meant to be figured out.. it just happens.. and you'll understand it when the time comes.. there's just too many things going on that you just can't possibly control.. so letting go is something I'm in the process of learning, for a while now.. nothing is forever.. things come and go and people come and go.. and it's alright.. I'm happy to have shared a fragment of my life with everyone I've met or gotten close to and there are times where you just know that this is when we depart.. you just gotta let go and move on from there.. but we all still hope the universe follows in favor to our views.. if it meant to last it will.. if it doesn't, well the universe has got lots more to offer.. why cut yourself short? discard your losses and move a little faster.. live through this, and you won't look back..
posted by spes 4:32 pm  0 comments