Wednesday, April 25, 2007
poor poor showing at the artsy-fartsy sexibition:
..i've had this phrase in my head. i thought it had something to do with royalty. it bothered me so much i had to look it up in the dictionary before i could leave my house.then i discovered that "sartorial" means of or relating to tailors or tailoring...imagine that.i was dissapointed.
...it must sound crazy to say, but i'm sure everyone thought about how everyone else would react if you weren't around...it's gratifying to picture in your head all these people wishing they'd have taken the godforsaken time to get to know you better...but then i picture all of those people who think they know me, who've talked to me maybe 10, 20 minutes of their lives, and i see them going up to their friends to boast that hey, i knew her, how bout that? and that vision just pisses me off.kye was talking to me the other day about leaving a legacy and i realized i've never once thought of that.i hardly give a hoot about this generation, why bother with the next one?the furthest i would go i guess is leaving letters to people i know, people i care about, that they'll receive after i'm gone. i dunno. it's all so fanciful it should probably have greater meaning...oh dear, is all i'm looking to find is meaning? how futile...it's like the great palinurus said, something about sleeping, and doing it forever...
...i dunno if lili reads this, but for what it's worth i love that child to all the pieces that she is, and i wish her all the bestest in the whole widest world that it can be for her, and i'll be a wishin and a hopin that her new job is as satisfying as all the chickens she could eva eat!! gambarimashita!! love love loves lili.muax!
posted by fuzzkill 11:58 pm
...it must sound crazy to say, but i'm sure everyone thought about how everyone else would react if you weren't around...it's gratifying to picture in your head all these people wishing they'd have taken the godforsaken time to get to know you better...but then i picture all of those people who think they know me, who've talked to me maybe 10, 20 minutes of their lives, and i see them going up to their friends to boast that hey, i knew her, how bout that? and that vision just pisses me off.kye was talking to me the other day about leaving a legacy and i realized i've never once thought of that.i hardly give a hoot about this generation, why bother with the next one?the furthest i would go i guess is leaving letters to people i know, people i care about, that they'll receive after i'm gone. i dunno. it's all so fanciful it should probably have greater meaning...oh dear, is all i'm looking to find is meaning? how futile...it's like the great palinurus said, something about sleeping, and doing it forever...
...i dunno if lili reads this, but for what it's worth i love that child to all the pieces that she is, and i wish her all the bestest in the whole widest world that it can be for her, and i'll be a wishin and a hopin that her new job is as satisfying as all the chickens she could eva eat!! gambarimashita!! love love loves lili.muax!
posted by fuzzkill 11:58 pm
