Monday, October 30, 2006
meus_spes:
okay it's been a while and I feel the need to write something but I can't exactly put together my thoughts.. a lot of random things coming in and many things going straight out and everything just seem short term.. which is a good thing.. nothing heavy to carry around but now it all depends on my juggling skills.. what to keep in my pockets and what's just plane rubbish.. but I must say, standards has gone up a notch.. tastes gotta change over time.. and it'll all be over in two months, then we’ll watch the stars descend.. and even so.. you can only get away with so much when you're drunk and talking about the world's best movie.. but hey.. good kisser.. and no aziem.. I will not fall in your lil’labeled hole.. no puns intended.. because I chose to stay up till morning and goodness it's a fucking free hazed world.. and it's good to know that you're still able to appreciate these little things.. little side comments and little inner jokes.. you want to help a friend and the best you can do is just keep the conversation going.. and eventually hit her with a stick.. cause you know, I ain't arab.. kidding.. it's all in the wavelength.. but the hair does help.. and how can you ignore such gorgeous, gorgeous hair? especially when it moves at ten frames per second.. you go wild like a lil'girl on ecstasy! but fuck.. don't take my word for it.. in fact, don't take any of my shit.. cause it only takes five words ace.. but of course, it had to be me.. but you are right.. in the past seven years it was indeed the best duit raya I've gotten so far.. you saved me over text.. and knowing five languages is just beyond impressive.. but of course, brazil portuguese is obviously much more complicated.. but I should have extended.. the evil that is nyonyo in possession of a magic card.. meus spes.. my hope.. score times like a billion! no doubt if I knew ealier, I would have.. but of course as fuzzy and I would agree.. he doesn't exist.. beastiality.. bestnyaa.. best sangat sangat.. as good man once said, there's plenty of top hat men in the biz..
posted by spes 3:32 am 0 comments
okay it's been a while and I feel the need to write something but I can't exactly put together my thoughts.. a lot of random things coming in and many things going straight out and everything just seem short term.. which is a good thing.. nothing heavy to carry around but now it all depends on my juggling skills.. what to keep in my pockets and what's just plane rubbish.. but I must say, standards has gone up a notch.. tastes gotta change over time.. and it'll all be over in two months, then we’ll watch the stars descend.. and even so.. you can only get away with so much when you're drunk and talking about the world's best movie.. but hey.. good kisser.. and no aziem.. I will not fall in your lil’labeled hole.. no puns intended.. because I chose to stay up till morning and goodness it's a fucking free hazed world.. and it's good to know that you're still able to appreciate these little things.. little side comments and little inner jokes.. you want to help a friend and the best you can do is just keep the conversation going.. and eventually hit her with a stick.. cause you know, I ain't arab.. kidding.. it's all in the wavelength.. but the hair does help.. and how can you ignore such gorgeous, gorgeous hair? especially when it moves at ten frames per second.. you go wild like a lil'girl on ecstasy! but fuck.. don't take my word for it.. in fact, don't take any of my shit.. cause it only takes five words ace.. but of course, it had to be me.. but you are right.. in the past seven years it was indeed the best duit raya I've gotten so far.. you saved me over text.. and knowing five languages is just beyond impressive.. but of course, brazil portuguese is obviously much more complicated.. but I should have extended.. the evil that is nyonyo in possession of a magic card.. meus spes.. my hope.. score times like a billion! no doubt if I knew ealier, I would have.. but of course as fuzzy and I would agree.. he doesn't exist.. beastiality.. bestnyaa.. best sangat sangat.. as good man once said, there's plenty of top hat men in the biz.. posted by spes 3:32 am 0 comments
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
next chapter:
Even though I'll never need him,
even though he's only giving me pain,
I'll be on my knees to feed him,
spend a day to make him smile again
Even though I'll never need him,
even though he's only giving me pain
As the world is soft around him,
leaving me with nothing to disdain.
Even though I'm not his minder,
even though he doesn't want me around,
I am on my feet to find him,
to make sure that she is safe and sound.
Even though I'm not his minder,
even though he doesn't want me around,
I am on my feet to find him,
to make sure that he is safe from harm.
The sun sets on the war,
the day breaks and everything is new..
kings of convenience - winning the battle, losing the war
posted by spes 9:50 am 0 comments
Even though I'll never need him,
even though he's only giving me pain,
I'll be on my knees to feed him,
spend a day to make him smile again
Even though I'll never need him,
even though he's only giving me pain
As the world is soft around him,
leaving me with nothing to disdain.
Even though I'm not his minder,
even though he doesn't want me around,
I am on my feet to find him,
to make sure that she is safe and sound.
Even though I'm not his minder,
even though he doesn't want me around,
I am on my feet to find him,
to make sure that he is safe from harm.
The sun sets on the war,
the day breaks and everything is new..
kings of convenience - winning the battle, losing the war
posted by spes 9:50 am 0 comments
Saturday, October 21, 2006
not a rabbit hole, just a hole:
I want to think that I'm back home but I honestly don't feel it.. I know I was away for a mere 18 days.. it's silly.. I know.. but everything just feels odd.. I'm trying to remember familiar faces.. familiar smells and tastes but it's all just different.. I would like to believe that this is home but I feel more and more like a stranger.. I'm hoping for a lighter day and it gets a little bit darker each day.. and every piece of the past that comes to me, I only realize that it is only a fragment of a moment that I can no longer feel..
I do however truthfully like to say that I'm good.. I know that this would be like any other condition I would have had during any time that I am away.. it's just an overstatement of my feelings which are currently unbalanced as a whole.. and consequently it all comes down to the longing of that comfort.. this, I will have to wait patiently.. and this will complete the chapter I am presently stuck in..
posted by spes 1:55 am 1 comments
I do however truthfully like to say that I'm good.. I know that this would be like any other condition I would have had during any time that I am away.. it's just an overstatement of my feelings which are currently unbalanced as a whole.. and consequently it all comes down to the longing of that comfort.. this, I will have to wait patiently.. and this will complete the chapter I am presently stuck in..
posted by spes 1:55 am 1 comments
Saturday, October 07, 2006
