Saturday, June 24, 2006
i know it'll rain on my wedding:
I'm waiting for the sun to show up.. so I can rejuvenate myself in chlorine.. I'm waiting for the right sing to buzz.. so I can enjoy coldplay a little bit better.. I'm waiting for my big break.. and I missing it flash before my eyes.. I'm waiting to fill my void.. and it's getting clogged up with noise.. I understood the requirements and I've done what's necessary.. I've hid the dirty laundry for a while.. and I gave out the green light.. flares and fireworks galore! and I wonder why is it everyday for every minute of every hour why.. why I feel weaker and everything gets darker every time I think why.. why does my skin feel colder and my lips more numb for every thought I ask myself why.. why do I feel pulled deeper and grinded on to the ground and it gets warm.. and I got sick.. and I lay there still in a big empty hall.. listening to songs I couldn't sing to.. waiting..
so I get it.. there's only so much I can do.. it's a lie I'm not gonna live for.. I've gone thru this one too many times.. give me the right music and the right intoxication and it'll pass.. it'll pass like all things do.. and I don't want to be mean.. so I'll continue to do what I do.. I just have to be a bigger boy about it.. grow a little harder.. build walls a little bit taller.. there's bigger things in the world.. fuck the sun.. I'm goin' swimming..
posted by spes 1:11 pm
so I get it.. there's only so much I can do.. it's a lie I'm not gonna live for.. I've gone thru this one too many times.. give me the right music and the right intoxication and it'll pass.. it'll pass like all things do.. and I don't want to be mean.. so I'll continue to do what I do.. I just have to be a bigger boy about it.. grow a little harder.. build walls a little bit taller.. there's bigger things in the world.. fuck the sun.. I'm goin' swimming..
posted by spes 1:11 pm
