confused lil'boi: sometimes you gotta ask.. is it to better to have felt it, even for a slight moment.. or not to have felt it at all.. for a mere second I've been taken out to limbo.. left my life behind.. took only what I could.. faced with something we all like to believe in as euphoria.. honestly it's funny these games we play in god's lil'islands.. I would like to think I got out of it a changed man.. I left a few things behind and gain some new things in the process.. but coming back to reality.. I'm slowly and gradually coming back to my jaded self.. no more time restrictions.. no more malibu excuses.. it's that feeling I love so very much.. the feeling that excludes anything that is disappointing.. you feel that high and fuck.. but I guess fate can only take you so far.. it's really up to you to make it happen.. and I did.. I tried.. at the risk of sounding desperate.. I had to know..

you never truly know how high you can get till you flick a light in total darkness when he asks you to help light his ciggarette.. and what you see you will bring through out your life.. and there's only so much you can do till 2008.. eh eh..
posted by spes 1:11 am