you idiot: I believe the word is "distraction".. the stars aren’t aligned as I hope it would be.. well actually they are but not in the way to my advantage.. it's there but I can't see it.. can't touch it.. it's season 2 of the OC all over again.. it's just in my head.. let's stay away from alcohol this time shall we?

at times I wish I could freak out but it would just come back and bite me in the ass.. I don't have enough evidence.. not enough things to say and at the end it just blows up everywhere in my head.. so I keep silent.. and I lose.. I think it's a capricorn thing.. not wanting to lose.. my subconscious says so, so it's gotta be true.. ever since class started I only slept on campus once.. I'm all over the place.. that's another capricorn thing.. routine.. I need it.. but nothing in my life is at the moment.. and I think I'm losing it.. see where this is going? the stars are fucked up.. and I'm falling..
posted by spes 2:06 am