what's it worth: what's in the past are all in the past and should be kept where it is.. whatever happened then happened because it wouldn't have happened any other way.. call it fate if you will.. there are billions of thing we'd want to change but we're only left with things to learn from and in hope will not repeat our mistakes..

now let's get more specific.. it's hard.. I know it is.. I can't even imagine what you're going through and it isn't my place to tell you how you should act or feel.. I honestly just do not know know to act around you.. I try to be normal but the bitterness at the back my head just get heated up at times and I do not know how to react..


honestly I don't think I can ever be 100% normal with you.. cause the truth is, after all that we've been through, I will never totally get over you.. all those thing I said, it was out of sheer bitterness and I'm sorry.. I never meant to blame you for anything.. as the ol'saying goes : it takes two to tango.. so what ever went wrong it was you and me both..

in any case it's all in the past.. so where do we go from here? I just hope that you will not put a grudge on me like you said.. I hope that in time you can forgive me.. cause (apart from others) you're one of my bestest friends.. and I wouldn't dream otherwise..
posted by spes 12:17 pm