you learn: there are just some things I'd rather not say.. I know keeping it in isn't good for me but swimming in them will just deepen my fucking hole.. rather than submitting to the truth, I'd take it out of existence all together.. like I do with all the horrible experience in my life.. that's why if you asked me of my bad experience in my life.. I wouldn't remember them.. cause I choose not to.. but some are worth keeping.. as much as it hurts, it's good to know it meant something at that particular time.. at least to me.. right now I don't know where I stand.. I keep swaying back and forth.. I find distractions everyday but at the end of the day I end up in the same place with the same sad songs..


I know I know.. it's for the best..


posted by spes 3:21 am