time is value:
i'm holding back on sex temporarily..
cutting down on world of warcraft hopefully..
and quit smoking indefinitely..
if there is ever a god, now is the time to pray for me..
Un pollo sin cabeza:
There is a wandering. A billion people waiting. I am waiting, too. How can I not be IT? There are fires and running and in my head jumping. And pencil chewing in all the nervous laughter that could mean something. How do I not mean anything?
Inside, it's all chicken with its head chopped off and black coffee and paints and books unfinished and babies not born and good red wine and ex-lovers who don't go and little things that bother me and places I'd much rather be and French and Italian and Portuguese lessons and needing clean sheets and wanting a new man and making lists and loving the word caricature and shoe gazing and Marrakech and symbolism and imagining things not real and writing and uncontrollable laughter and wanting to be more political and cutting my own hair and guilt and smiling and not smoking and bleeding and closed shutters and rain not falling and oh my god, I'm going to be 24 this year...
How do I not mean anything yet?
Assurance (ampersand) Affection:
Maybe I'm high-maintenance. What a disappointment; I really didn't think i would be. Cis.
"When your partner is sharing her day with you---please do not move into solving. Men often struggle with wanting to solve everything for women. When they actually sit down to hear about their wife’s day, they immediately move into fixing it: “Did you try this?” “Next time you should say this.” “Your boss is out of line, you should go back and tell him…” Stop solving!!! When you respond to your wife’s sharing by trying to solve something you’re implying that she’s incapable of solving it herself. This is incredibly frustrating for your wife. You’re also assuming that there’s a problem to be solved. Often women share just to relay information, not to change something. Sit back, listen and do not solve unless you have been explicitly asked to do so." -- straightalk/relational/
this happens a lot and makes me feel stupid"Let's face it, women need a lot of attention, we have feelings and emotions that run deeper then any of the seven seas in the whole wide world. If you forget her birthday, an anniversary, or any other special day or if you skimp out on the other important days like Valentine's Day, Mother's Day, Christmas, New Years Eve or WHATEVER, she will feel unappreciated and that is a major red-light danger zone! If you are so caught up and busy doing whatever it is that you do, even if you are working a lot to pay bills and what not, at the very least... you better remember the days that count! The rule of thumb here is that you need to show your appreciation to her, show her how special she is and how much she means to you. Say thank you in little ways, because every woman will tell you, "it's the little things that count." The reason the little things count is because they all add up to one big thing, whether or not you appreciate her enough. If she baby's you when you're sick, packs your lunches, makes you dinner every night, if she cuts your hair, or makes you feel special by throwing you a surprise party, or gets you little thoughtful gifts here and there, no matter what the occasion, she is doing her best to make you feel special, loved and appreciated. We will never say it out loud, but we're expecting you to do it for us too. Picking up some flowers "just because" is a great way to show her, taking her out for a romantic dinner will also do the trick, getting her a card to say you're sorry, or giving her a little something because you love her, will always work wonders. If not, there is always some guy out there that will give her the works and charm those panties off by sweeping her off her feet." -- Yahoo/Shine/
this scares me, and makes me feel small for being able to relate