suck it in: I took a peek.. a mere 20 seconds and a rush of emotion went straight thru my head.. I turned it off.. I couldn't bare to watch it alone.. it was too real.. too beautiful..
posted by spes 6:05 am  0 comments

  unsent:
> dear mr.lost & found,
I can see you across the globe.. I’m sorry I left you in such a mess.. I would have been there if the universe allowed me.. we have the same goal you and me, but took different paths.. I will see you at the end of the road.. I promise.. then we’ll take over the world..

> dear ms.connection,
you paint me green all over from the start.. you’re noted, my childhood friend.. a rare title if not fiction.. I miss fishing even though they were never my type.. you left and came back intact because time never aged you.. you bring me home..

> dear mr.whatever,
I am fond of how we have absolutely nothing in common and can still relate with everything.. you steal time away from me and I appreciate it.. I say you’re my reason but it’s just an excuse.. you’re famous in my book.. and you’re straight..

> dear mr.spot,
you cured my common cold.. but I wasn’t ready to be jovial.. as much as I want to wear it, it's stained.. I've spilt wine and it isn't easy to remove.. I need miracle bleach.. maybe another life.. or perhaps another island will do just fine.. run away with me..

> dear ms.new-life,
you swam so far, I can no longer see you on the horizon.. but I feel the light wind you breathe behind my neck and I know you’re battle is over.. your life starts now although I wish it didn’t, not so soon.. but alas, if I can’t keep you, I’m keeping your marked canvases.. you know I’m selfish like that..

> dear mr.tease,
I beat myself up again, but you asked me out for greens and I can't help but get intoxicated.. cause you gave me a reason to and it's okay.. I keep three inches away from you but you manage to dirty my pants, and my shoulders.. without risking sounding lame, I wish I had the moral fiber to push you in a stall..

> dear ms.confession,
if I was a terrorist, them white men will be looking for you.. you’re worth my last quarter although the stars say otherwise.. you’ve saved my life countless times even thought I knew you enjoyed pulling the strings.. fair trade.. I’m in debt to you for life..

> dear mr.malaysia,
I’m not at all surprised.. seven years may have tone me down but it never for a second changed my perception of you.. the eyes of the public may see it but I really have nothing to hide.. it was a cheap attempt and I feel deeply sadden.. how very Islamic of you..

> dear ms.over-achiever,
why look up when everything’s below you? You’re my ticket out of here, if not fly then we swim.. my instinct tells me you’re the one, so let’s take advantage but I don’t want to abuse it.. I see beyond what mere pencil and paper has written.. you’ll make it one day.. and you’ll make it big..

> dear mr.high spirit,
you’re brand spanking new but we’ve lived forever.. you’re good in taking notes, but even if you’re doodling I would feel at ease.. you’re bolder than I am and I respect that.. that day will come sooner than you know it.. I will stand here, and I will smile..

> dear mr.shower,
you’re a bolt of lightening too fast for me to catch up.. but I can still see the light at a distant.. shine bright for the world.. sometimes too bright even, it hurts my eyes.. at times I wish I had my shades.. at times I wish I was blind.. I had shrunk yet still you wore me around.. I should be grateful..

> dear ms.independent,
you’re the strongest women I’ve known.. several years in and you’re still clean and unsullied.. you water your garden and hope blooms, and I can’t help but still believe.. everyday you climb higher, I sink deeper.. you are my doppelganger.. we make a great combination..

> dear mr.past,
I see right through you.. most of the time.. I’ve been through it all but I’ll keep it hush hush.. you’ll be more resilient that way, even more so than me.. in due time I will see you in that light.. and give you my utmost respect..

> dear mr.emo,
you’re smart.. a rare trait nowadays.. I have high opinions about you, but what you’re eyeing for isn’t mutual.. and I’m sorry.. I enjoy your company but I wouldn’t want to live a lie.. disappointment is up ahead and it’s better now than later.. I hope to see you soon..

> dear ms.divert,
I’m stubborn I’m sure you know.. but you’ve changed my views and made it seem natural.. for a crisp five seconds, I glide where nothing else matters.. your little words and minor sounds comfort me.. you’re fresh in every chapter I’ve read.. you’re my optimist..
posted by spes 6:03 am  2 comments

  penguins galore: the semester's finally over and this is my final video for my semester project.. see my work in progress at teapot.com.my.. codec can be found at divx.com.. enjoys..


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here's a wallpaper I did.. see it if you're seriously that bored..


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