jaded/naive I don't know why but everything seems to be moving smoothly.. ish.. I look at myself and this isn't exactly the life I'm looking for.. but at this particular moment, I shouldn't be complaining.. and I'm not really.. in fact.. I'm kinda enjoying it.. ish.. my day to day routine has been taken over with my freelance job.. not exactly the best environment to work with.. but it's not something I hate doing neither.. heck.. I'm getting paid for it.. so yeah.. at this particular moment.. I'm not complaining.. but hey.. it's only been my second day in the office..
posted by spes 10:08 pm  0 comments

  dot: everything has stood still lately.. nothing seems to be progressing.. it's all just there.. deteritating as I write.. I think this is the furthest I can run for now.. I have no where else to go.. I keep thinking I'm missing in with the time.. but I guess when you're hoping for greatness, you miss out on what you currently have.. I need time out.. I need time for myself.. cause I'm afraid I've already past that line where I just can't stand to be alone..
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  nabi isa supa sta: I can't say that cherating was better than serendah.. and I'd be lying if I said I didn't have fun cause I did.. driving there was a drag but at least they had hot water.. laying on the beach made it all worth while.. staying up for the sunset however was not.. I slept like a baby.. running in the rain and slow dancing with fuzzy where no one led and peeing in the ocean were all an experience.. the fag team kicked ass is volleyball.. whoohoo!! even without the salad, the part-ay was sufficient enough.. yes? abang hussein busuk macam fish cake basi yes? hehe.. you know we love you hussein..
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  I've been watching your world from afar
I've been trying to be where you are
and I've been secretly falling apart
I see

To me you're strange and you're beautiful
You'd be so perfect with me but you just
can't see. You turn every head but you don't
see me.

I'll put a spell on you
you fall asleep
when I put a spell on you
and when I wake you
I'll be the first thing you see
and you'll realise that you love me

yeah
ye-ah

Sometimes the last thing you want comes in first
Sometimes the first thing you want never comes
But I know, that waiting is all you can do
Sometimes

I'll put a spell on you
you fall asleep
I'll put a spell on you
and when I wake you
I'll be the first thing you see
and you'll realise that you love me

I'll put a spell on you
you fall asleep
cause I put a spell on you
and when I wake you
I'll be the first thing you see
and you'll realise that you love me
yeah

yeah
ye-ah
yeah
ye-ah

aqualung - strange and beautiful
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  flaming pants: After years of dreaming and picking out the prefect name, I say fuck it! I finally have my own fucking domain!! whooraah for me!!
http://www.iamspes.comnothing new tho.. just uploaded my portfolio site.. now I have no excuse not to work on my website.. now for some random stuff.. I wanna watch crash and mysterious skin.. oh and harry potter.. am going to serendah yet again this weekend.. salad and par-taay please! I'm now a smoker.. hey! I can't stay naive forever! (thanx nish).. I'm getting a new phone and selling my slr.. this blog is near its one year anniversary! and yes, I love my heterosexual man! -end
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